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| - dead!okay im engaged but i don't think it's real love.....my friend is in love with a nazi prickhole that i hate with all my heart and he's comming 2 me 4 advice and im stuck between them and i can't even begin to cover the way i feel about shawn being in love and how it tears me up inside knowing he's happy with sum1 else and how i wish it was me and how i hate my self 4wishing that and how i only said i would marry robert out of anger and confusion and how i hate the fact he is in the army and will go to iraq and how maybe i do love him a little and how if he dies it will crush me and i'll..................be truely alone.........no one knows how close to death i am they all just think all the laughing and smiling is saying im ok but really it means im dying slowly and soon im going to kill myself................
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| - A Devil in New Jersey Cityokay ppl after the long awaited return on the random chick named sky. im back and here to stay. okay heres whats new. im single still!!!!!!!!(yay???) okay well me aqnd jessica D. had a talk about andrew the guy who i was considering going back out with but after our talk i swer to god if i see him i will try my best to make evrysecond the is around me a living hell. houw could he DARe say those things and ya know what! im glad that he and i aren't together cuz i think he is a lying sack of cow shit!!!!!!! as for shawn i want to nail him to my wall and tourcher him for as long as i live!!!!!!!!! okay Robert, Jessica's brother(the one guy who liked me for me and not my body and the guy who understands meand the guy who will possibly be my future husband) is still in love with me!!!! he and i talked and i was amazed at how much me still had in common. he was like "sky you think all the guys that you date want one thing from you, but thats not true for me. who said we have to have sex? we could just do everything but sex, i love you for you not your body" i am soo crushing hard over him. HOW DARE!!!!!! shawn and andrew tell my dad that me and robert are dating!!!!!!!! how dare they even have the thought of me in their minds. i have one last thing to bitch about....I HATE FUCKING STUPID ASS SITCOMS!!!!!!!!!! they annoy me so much!!!!!!! and those game show or whatever they are. i hate Big brother 7 , Rockstar: Supernova, and the rest of those run of the mill shows. i love So you think you can dance, Master of Champions and Fear Factor. the rest of them can go to hell!!!!!!!! AMERICAN IDOL IS THE DEVIL'S WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! okay well my fav show right now is Numb3rs with that math wiz guy and he solves crim with math! i think it's cool! enyway my dad is agenst me and robert dating. he says he needs time to heal from the shawn incident and maybe we can take it slow and wait awhile. i can wait i only hope he can wait for me...hehehe well BYE PPL!!!!!!!!!!! | | |
| - Miss Murderhehehehe yea well i've been busy lately because well i'm nervous because i really like brian and we've got so much chemistry but the thing is that he well has a girlfriend sort of and well he's gonna leave her for me(I'M SO HAPPY ^_^)i know thats a good thing but somehow i think it would be bad cuz what if she really likes him and won't give him up without a fight.....well she can bring it!!!!!! lol oh yea brian is such a cutie pie ^_^ he is always hugging me and or throwing me into river, lakes, and many other water bodies and sometimes he jumps on me -.- i never get tired of his cuteness omg! he is such a cute kisser!!!! omg! kaci and i are still cool even after our quick break up and stuff hehehe well im so happy i've gotten some new cloths from the mall. im okay with them they aren't to preppy but there is not a pair of jean i can't punk out!!!!!!!!!!......unless they were pink jeans. ya know how movies couldn't make me cry.....well i've been crying lately yea thats right!!!!!!!! i cry!!!!!!!!! so what!!!!!!! well enyways i was watching "from Justin to kelly" and well i was crying by the end of the damn movie so justin tried to make me laugh by letting me watch "wax house" and normaly i would laugh when paris hilton cries i didn't i just shuttered and said omg this movie is so scary......AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! BOYS ARE MAKING ME WEAK.....MUST PLAY HALO SO I CAN FEEL LIKE A REAL GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!! lol yea halo makes me feel impowered and awesome cuz i get to kill guys and laugh while they make fuetile atemps to try and kill me hahaha! well i have to go well bye random readers!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| - Miss. Murderwell okay yea i should have seen that comming but it was such a shock. okay well shawn says "sorry sky i love kelsey" well okay im still confused......okay he loves kelsey..the same girl that used him and played with his emotions and ended up causeing him to nearly die......okay tell me if im wrong but isn't that a reason to HATE THAT PERSON?!?!?!?!?!?!?! well i'll never get guys thats why i'm gonna do what justin said "sky don't look for love, it's one of the three evils, ya gotta look for lust!, screw the guy then dump his sorry ass" well it went something like that i was pretty wasted when he told me that. well the tree evils are 1.love 2.fear 3.anger they are evil because they will all cause you to lose control and DIE!!!!!!!(not really but ya get my point) so yea im gonna do that!. if you look for love you get heart broken. you look for lust you get laid and ya NEVER have to shed a tear over the guy cuz you just liked him cuz he looked good not cuz he was you perfect match. well enyways ummm i got drunk and went streaking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was sooo FUN!!!!!!!!!!! it was like 12am and i was running down the street bare ass naked and i loved every moment! well the only bad part was when i stopped running i puked up then i looked at it and lauged...that was just weird. well then ummm i think im going to go to summer camp with justin that should be fun...i hope...if it has fun, games, small animals known as kids or enything to do with the lord...im heading for the nearest bus station.....lol yea well ummm my life has turned into a series of random song lyrics....for examle "
But if you could just write me out
To neverless wonder... happy will I become
Be true that this is no option," see that tell you how i feel about shawn....well theres more.....
"(Colors blind)
the eyes
(Sounds deafen)
the ear
(Flavors numb)
the taste
(Thoughts weaken)
the mind"
thats how i feel when i cry over shawn...........wait theres more!!!!!!! "I'll attack someone with a switchblade knife
So that I can see their pain
I choose to be a serial killer
'Cause the victims don't get any fame." thats how i feel about kelsey and shawn being together!!!!!!!!!!!! yea well so what i said i'll be hapy for him well i LIED!!!!!!!!! so what why should he be happy if im sad and misserable???? well what dose it matter love is one of the three evils enyway......well bye ppl i gotta go to a party........l8r!!!!!!!!! | | |
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